Change

If you would have asked me 5 years ago what my life was going to look like in the following years, the word “change” probably would not have entered my mind. I had a normal life. Consistent. Routine. Predictable. Comfortable. Before I married Jon, I had a good career, a house, lived alone and had a pretty uneventful life. And I’m not implying anything negative when I say “uneventful”. Uneventful is good most of the time. I could make plans months in advance because I knew my schedule. 9-5, Monday through Friday. Nothing changed.

ha. If I knew then where I’d be now, I probably would never believe it.
The girl who thought she wouldn’t be getting married until she was an old maid… just celebrated her 4 year wedding anniversary.
The girl who lived (mostly) in the same area all of her life… has moved 5 times, cross-country, in the last 4 years.
The girl who thought kids wouldn’t come until much later in life… has two daughters.
A lot can change in 5 years.

To catch you guys up:
As most of you reading this know, Jon returned from deployment at the end of February this year. We learned in late July that he would be deploying again the first of September.
Ugh.
He just got home and he is already on another deployment.
Well, after we found this news out we had some decisions to make. Last deployment I was pregnant with Emma and spent the deployment back and forth between my house and my parent’s house 5 hours away. I certainly didn’t want to do that again. A 5 hour drive is much more challenging with two babies. So we decided that I would move back to Southern California while he is deployed to be near family and friends. In one month, we rented out our house, packed, moved the whole house 5 hours away and said goodbye as Jon left on another overseas deployment. :(

Two deployments, a new baby, and a move in one year. That is a whole lot of change for a girl who lived an uneventful life. đŸ˜‰ Do you want to know what is the craziest, surreal thing out of all of this??
I moved back into the same house that I lived in before I even met Jon! Five years later, I am sitting in the same kitchen, in the same house, with a completely different life.
Do you ever have a dream where the setting is somewhere that you lived before… like your childhood house that you grew up in? But people that you currently know are there? And it just doesn’t make sense at all? Oh my gosh, I feel like I am living in a dream like that. I have had incidents where I go to get something out of a drawer or cupboard of where I used to keep something, only to realize that I kept it there 5 years ago and not now. Or walking into the nursery, which was my guest bedroom, and laughing… I have kids! Two of them! haha

There has been so much change, but somehow life has come full circle, ending back up where I started. How crazy is that? Never, in a million years, would I have thought I would ever see this house again, let alone LIVE in it. The funny thing is, the few times that I got homesick while I lived in Texas, I wanted to come home to THIS house. Perhaps it was me missing my normal, comfortable, routine life. But never, even for a second, would I trade normal for the life that I have now. Despite the unpredictable, unmerciful, and just plain hard military lifestyle, I have found my joy within the unknown. When we are weak, HE is strong. And, even though I have no idea where the path is going, I know the Lord does, and I trust that it is good.

It is reassuring to know that God has a plan in all of this. Because sometimes it just feels like chaos. Completely out of my control. I suppose this is the season in my life that God is providing opportunity to develop patience, trust in Him, perseverance, and dependence. So be it. If we never faced anything hard, then we would never grown.

 

 

The most comforting thing in a life that can be so up in the air from one month to the next, is knowing that Jesus is my constant. He doesn’t change. He is with me everywhere I go, and is right beside me in everything thing that I go through. When my focus is on Him, all of the chaos melts away and I realize His promises for my life are good. He can be trusted. And that won’t ever change.

 

So much has been packed into such a short amount of time. A month later and I am still unpacking boxes, getting settled in and making a home for the girls. I chuckle as I unpack because I know as soon as I get some sort of order and routine in this house, it will be time to pack up and move again. There are a lot of things I can call my life, but dull is not one of them. đŸ˜‰ I am just praising God for the opportunity to live near family and friends again, even for such a short time. It is a bittersweet season. The journey will get much, much sweeter when Jon returns home once again. That is a change I am looking forward to. :)

 

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  • mrsyellowhat

    Smiling because I get this! :). What a blessing you can be near family!

  • Helen

    Yay! You’re back to blogging! I have missed reading your posts…I too am glad you get to be near family and friends during Jon’s deployment. And yes how crazy it is how much things can change in just a few short years.